I'm not here
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This poem is somewhat my way of dealing with my boyfriend cheating on me. It is hard to explain how I feel but I did my best to write it in a rather lousy poem. Who knows, maybe he will read it and feel even more guilty.
By the way, I forgave him because he said he didn't love her. Who knows?
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As it is, I see it, you left me now
Maybe I deserve it
You rather be with her than with me stupid cow
I feel lost in this pit
So my heart is broken and I loosen the bow
because I give up on it
Nothing seems right at the moment, except hating now
I believed in you
Wanted to achieve with you
Craved for you
And breathed for every minuted with you
Now Im lieing here in this big and lonely bed,
I dont know what to say
Strange thoughts just stomped into my head,
I only wanted from the sun's ray,
In your ears it might sound like a threat,
I never wished for this day,
Maybe by now I want to be dead
I longed for you
My heart ached for you
Begged for you
And cried so very long for you
Tomorrow I'll be here pale and all done,
In the end I was wrong
You might even wish that I shouldn't have gone
But the pain seemed so long
I guess I was afraid and took the far run,
For who am I crying this song?
You might even wish that I wouldn't have gone
I loved you
I prayed every day for you
cryied for you
and lived every day for you
So you find it not right that I leave you in pain
I silently went on my own way out
They would tell me its no loss, its a great gain
It still lashes me with a spicked rout
There's a word for my ending, I think its "in vain"
I did not scream, I did not shout
My mind is detached, lokated in air, don't call me sane
because I am not there...
