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Yeah .. First i want to thank all the nice people who congratulated me for my 20th (03.12) B-Day.
5 days prior (28.11)it was the death-day of my father ...8 years since he is gone...
It deressed my much again even when i thought i had overcome the fakt and all the nightmares it hurt BADLY to stand at his grave....
My parents bragged me about visiting them at my birthday so i decided to stay a whole week...bad decision...
My father can be a nice man but he is very unfair sometimes.....
I hadn't anticipated my birthday because i knew it would be just a simple fucked up day like every other one...and i was right. I woke up and got a "Happy bithday"
No little peace of cake with a single candle ...
No card..
no nothing.... ( i an not greedy...but i got that every year i don't want presents just my card and my peace of cake or muffin with a candle, it shows me kind of thta i am stil mums little girl)
Like i thought my parents did what they did every day..nothing special so far.. After dinner i asked if we could maybe visit the cinema or try this new little coffe out But no... after they were both slightly drunk at MIDDAY!!!!( i hate that but i cant change them>_> )they chose to sleep the half afternoon.
And after that they lay lazy on the couch in front of TV. My last atampt was a bottle of sparkling wine.... After i said somthing like " So that we can at least celebrate a little" my mother did make a very (for me even when it was spoken funny) painful comment like " what did you expect? confetti and balons?"
After supper they left for bed ....again slightly drunk...and let me sit there alone bacause they where tired.>_>
Just like i thought a day befor it will just be a fucked up day like every other where my step father will bark and scream ta me because of things i have no part in and yeah---mum will drink....
I cried myself to sleep on my birthday... Nice way to celebrate the ( for me ) most important birthday in my life so far.....
I hate it to be at home because there i will mostly be treated unfair..but saing that makes it more stressing...I thought it was important for them....
Most of you know i broke up with my ex girlfriend an not so good therms.....--' I missed her the most!
And what i see right now? YOU locked your whole account here i can't even contact her here anymore. I thought YOU are more mature then his but i was mistaken.
Ii knew this kind of relationship was never realy something for you a fling at most.. But at least you could have just said "its over" and don't let me suffer for weeks....
( ...i bet you wont even read this)
I think i was just not good enough.. i tried to and then i wasnt myself enymore...
But still i cant let go and cling to every memory...
Even when i know that this is just stupid
Like a silly dog--''
When it comes down it comes down HARD!!!
ITACHI!<3
LEUTE GUCKTS EUCH AN !
DAS IST SO GEIL
