Harry Potter - the order of the phoenix epilogue von Cyn ================================================================================ Kapitel 1: ----------- Harry Potter The order of the phoenix - epilogue It's been one week, since Harry returned "home" (or better be named as the dursley-hell). One week full of loathing, thinking and emotional suffering. Never in his entire life had Harry felt so alone. By no means he recieved letters every day from Hermoine and Ron - his dearest friends, who seemed dying with worry. He also got one from Lupin and even Moody came around to write a few grumpy lines. Uncle Vernon of course has been furious about so many owls at Privet Drive - not that Harry cared anyway. It was only very little left for what he truly cared with Sirius gone. He couldn't even bring himself to a weary smile about Ron's pityful attemps at brighten his mood with pathetic jokes or Hermoine's somewhat eternal letters about how life still had its sunny spots. He felt rather guilty about that, like he wasn't grateful for their friendship, but the immense pain inside his heart was slowly eating him up. He spend hour after hour just sitting inside his tiny room staring at the blank walls, or the mirror, Sirius had given him for a present. Never had he shed real tears over the loss of his godfather or really talked to anyone about his feelings. His letters always were short and told everyone who asked, that he was just fine. Not that he convinced anyone with that, but it didn't really matter after all. Nothing did. Downstairs Dudley hat another row with his mother about his driving licence he would shortly get an how he wanted an car with that (to show off probably). He felt rather disgusted about the sweetness in Mrs. Dursley's voice, trying to explain her spoiled son that she wasn't thinking much of that. What - of course - had another fit of screams from Dudley for a consequence. Why couldn't they just shut up? Harry wanted to hear nothing, just spending his time in silence. Once more he was staring at the mirror in his hands, which trembled slightly. "Why...." he whispered hoarsly, "why did you have to leave me...?" He got quite a firmer grip on the rather cold object, again feeling this blinding rage building up inside himself. But Harry didn't have any strength left to let it out. Suddenly his door sprung open, and a very angry, redfaced Dudley looked dreadfully at him. "You!!! It's all your fault!!!" He screeched, stampered towards the bed, on which Harry sat. The bespectaceled boy just stared up blankly not very interested in what the fat git had to say. Dudley grabbed him by the collar and seazed him up close to his face. "Because we have to feed you an' by you clothes an' everythin' Mum and Dad can't buy me a car!!!" He roared. (Ridiculous, because Harry never got any new clothes and hadn't been eating much since he got back) "I'll make you pay for this!!!" With that, he rammed him into the wall. With the impact, Harry lost his grip on Sirius' mirror and it shattered on the floor. Seconds ran by, where nothing happend while he just stared at the pieces and Dudley, still pinning him to the wall, continued shouting insults at him. Just as the green-eyed boy realized, what his cousin had destroyed his aunt and uncle appereared in his room as well, remotely angered like their son. "I've had enough!!!" shouted Uncle Vernon. "We've all been trying so hard to give you a family and everything and you?? Just making trouble again!!" Harry wasn't surprised at all, that his uncle ignored, that it was again Dudleys fault but like said, he didn't care much. All he cared right now was his broken mirror. Just the last bit of his strength came back and his anger flared up sending Dudley right onto his parents. "GET OUT!!! ALL THREE OF YOU!!!" He shouted as loud as his lungs would give permission. The hole room began to shake, what frightened the Dursley Family to death and all of them were scrambling out of the door as quick as possible, which was closed forcefully right after them. Harry's whole body was shaking an he was slowly sinking to his knees. Trembling hands picked up the pieces of Sirius' mirror, chlutching them tightly, not caring about the cuts he already got from them. "Why......" Another horse whisper... Pieces.... "My mirror....Sirius's Mirror...." All shattered.... "Why...." Gentle, yet mischivious eyes smiling at him. Maybe someday....you would want to live with me.. "Sirius..." Alone....and so cold....His godfather beeing hit by the curse... I'm here for you Harry...anytime you need me. Just one look into that mirror. "No...." One by one, tears slowly trickeled down his still childlike face from eyes, which inhabited so much pain...too much for a fifteen year old. Bleeding hands from clinging onto the shards... His eyes meeting Sirius' for the last time...Lupin's arms holding him back tightly not to follow... "Please...." Always by your side Harry.... Sirius finally dissappearing behind the veil, falling into the shadows....Lupin's words echoing through his mind... "he's not coming back, Harry.....Sirius's gone....he's gone...." "Please...come...back...." His voice cracked with the pain, tears now pouring freely from his green eyes. "Come back....." Every memory he had with his godfather and his father's best friend rushed by, every moment...every word...every hug...every emotion...feeling betrayed..learning the truth...finally having family...being loved...feeling at home...home was, where sirius was...but he was no more...he was gone...left him....again...his family....left him...alone....cold....scared....shattered.... "SIRIUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" And Harry collapsed. Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)