I exist   von Jared_Padalecki
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Ich hab mal wieder meine Gefühle in Worte verwandelt. 


I sit alone in my room, hearing nothing but my own breath. Sometimes music so
loud it shut out the screams of those who are disappointed of me.

There are a lot.
I can hear them.

Sometimes I hug myself, 'cause there is no one there to lean on. Everybody has
gone away as soon as I started falling apart.

They're gone.
Nobody's here.

I can laugh, sure I do, but as soon as I'm alone, I'm choking on those laughter,
choking on the tears I try to prevent.

It is too much.
I can't breathe.

I try to pick up the pieces of myself and put them together, but they're sharp
and just cut me, before they fall back on the floor.

I know this pain.
I live with it.

Oh God I need help. I don't want to exist, I want to live and dream. I want to
be me, I need to be me. I wish for someone to love me. I wish for you to love
me. 

But for now...
I just exist.


Kommis sind wie immer gern gesehen.^^

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